TO "YOU"

you should not keep everything inside.

im afraid things will change drastically if you do
and im sure, you're afraid of it too.

changes are the only things thats constant in life.
time changes people, and so you've proved it to be true.
but that doesnt mean we have to abide to that change.
people just need to stay strong. and it applies to everything.

so, i beg of you, nadia, please stay strong.
and if they bring you down, you should know what to do.
cause im still the person you once knew, and i wont ever stay away.

all i wish for you, is that for you to be your old self.
yes its hard, as your problems dont instantly go away, and they continue to linger.

but yeah, if it takes time i understand. and if you cant tell me your problems.
still, i'd cheer you up, do silly things infront of you, laugh with you, etc.
i'd go all out. and no, you've never been a burden. i swear.

believe me.

CHANGES

how can angels like you, fall right down from grace?

no matter what, though thick and thin.
if this doesnt apply to you animore. then yeah, let me be the fool.

HOODOO II

come into my life, regress into a dream
we will hide, and build a new reality
draw another picture, of a life you could have had
follow your instincts, and choose the other path

you should never be afraid
you're protected from trouble and pain
why, why, is this a crisis in your eyes again?

come to be, how did it come to be?
tied to a railroad, no love to set us free
watch our souls fade away, and our bodies crumbling
dont be afraid

i will take the blow for you~

and ive had recurring nightmares
that i was loved for who i am
and missed the opportunity
to be a better man


i am afraid. they might just be words.
but its not as if i dont believe. im just afraid.

i dont care. yes, i may still do.
but nothing can be done. then so be it.

oh well. this is what you call life afterall.

AND

she said to forget.
but.. ok i shall forget the problems then. :S

aniways.

MUSIC TELEPATHY's 1st ever debut was a success.
nadia was great and she wore that new checkered top that made her look country-ish.
syu was great too but the nervousness was always kicking in on her.

BUT, overall we did great. and thanks to "them" for the opportunity.

hmmm. now i need a lubricate my strings. its affecting the sound.
oh and today, damn. i accidentally dropped my pedal on the hard concrete floor.

damn, damn, damn. oh well. MT rocks! XD

HOODOO

what i do is wrong
my heart tells me only wrong things
im just gonna be wrecking two souls
and when i try to change, it changes me back
and yes, i hate myself.



i will take the blow for you.

and to me it means, i will change everything which is myself.
and im so sorry nadia.

IDK

why but, all of a sudden, i just want to cancel out my name.

ive already been told to do whatever i feel like doing.
but it felt wrong. oh well.

and IF really, i shouldnt be in.
there's probably a good reason behind it, well thats what i hope to think.
and its probably best if i just cancel out my name and not know the reasons.

i understand. yeah i guess so.

sighs. i dont know. i must be thinking too much. oh well. aniway.
goodnight. i better start to reset myself.

DREAMS

its something we want or have
be it for yourself or either with yourself and someone else.
and its ok to dream, cause apparently its free. and its not that mind bending.
but it wont come true unless we do something about it, so yeah.

yesterday, nadia and i sat and we came up with quite a number of dreams.
and hopefully one fine day, they'll come true. if not all, then maybe some of it?

apparently not all my dreams are shattered yet.
the utopian dream may already have, but we're still making something out of the mess.
and in the end i have someone to thank cause ultimately, it points to her.

and no, that wasnt an attempt to be sarcastic or anything. but really.
thank you so much, you.



do you remember
what things looked like when you were young
the voice of an old friend
or the notes to your first song

it's been a while now
since you asked me to be
your cat, your dog, your owl, or bumblebee

lately I've been feeling like the day has come
you'll walk up to me and erase my memory
can't wait to feel brand new
i cant wait to meet you again, friend

i think i must have known you, in another life
i think our rocking chairs used to rock together, all night

with pictures of owls, all over the walls
tiny ships in bottles, they won't sail too far

BLACKOUT

dont kid yourself, and dont fool yourself
this love's too good to last
and im too old to dream

ok this helps, a little. thank you muse.

MAY BE WITHOUT CAUSE

im sorry, its all that i can say
you mean so much and i'll fix all that ive done if i could start again
i'd throw it all away to the shadows of regrets
and you would have the best of me

blame it on the weather. but no. i shall not let it happen again.

aniways its monday. as usual, the monday blues.
physically i was in class, but mentally, i prolly was up in the skies.
and note to self, beware of mondays, i tend to eat alot.

re-test tomorrow. damn. oh well. i know my stuffs already.

LAST TRAIN HOME

to every broken heart in here
love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
she told me that it's all part of the choices that you make
even when you think you're right
you have to give to take

but there's still tomorrow
forget the sorrow and i can be on the last train home
watch it pass the day, as it fades away
no more time to care, no more time, today

but we sing, if we're going nowhere
yeah we sing, if it's not enough
and we sing, sing without a reason
to ever fall in love

i wonder if you're listening
picking up on the signals, sent back from within
sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here

but there's still tomorrow
forget the sorrow, and I can be on the last train home
watch it pass the day, as it fades away
no more time to care, no more time, today

but we sing, if we're going nowhere
yeah we sing, if it's not enough
and we sing, sing without a reason
to ever fall in love

well we sing, if we're going nowhere
yeah we sing, if it's not enough
And we sing, sing without a reason to ever fall in love

but we sing , if we're going no where
yeah we sing, if it's not enough
and we sing, sing with out a reason to never fall in love
to never fall in love again

oh man, there's school tomorrow.

SOMETIMES

life doesnt gives you what you want.
we start to compare and it may seem unfair.
afraid of facing dissapointments, but its natural.

in the end, we end up hurting ourselves.

so why not take things easy and casual.
and just give it your all and your best.
continue to give and dont expect much back.

one day, it might just pay off, and we might not have to hurt ourselves.

dont worry you. dont hurt yourself now. :)

HYSTERIA

cause i want it now, i want it now! give me your heart and your soul! XD

ONCE

i used to have a deviantart account. with all the artworks and stuffs.
click this. TYPE-D.

well go view it. its been long since i updated it. i can really like laugh at myself.
oh well. those were the days, long long ago. lets not go back there now. :)

LETTER TO SANTA

since nadia made her christmas list, i shall too.

ok here goes nothing.

dearly beloved old bearded man. (oh i mean santa claus)

ive been good throughout the year. really i have been.
what nadia said about being good and all, is a lie i tell you.
so old bearded man, who would you rather believe me or nadia?

now lets put that aside and lets get back to business. here's my list.
1 - MUSE to perform live in singapore again!!!
2 - MUSE to come out with another rocking album!!!
3 - MUSE to give me the replicas of all their equipments!!!
4 - MUSIC TELEPATHY to be successful!!!
5- MUSIC TELEPATHY to be in MTV!!!
6 - MUSIC TELEPATHY to perform at the waterfront!!!
7 - A PS3 console!!!
8 - A Supercomputer!!! (nadia you want this too right?)
9 - Nadia's wishes to come true first, then mine!
10 - For Nadia to get well soon!

hmmm. ok santa, i want wish #10 now, can i?
see im good am i? hello santa, are you there? do you read me? hello?

ok. altogether now, say it with me people!
MUSE ROCKS TO THE CORE! MUSE IS THE BEST! MUSE IS NUMBER ONE!

woop woop~!!! :D

STOCKHOLM SYNDROME

this is the last time i'll abandon you.
and this is, the last time i'll forget you.
yeah, i wish i could.

*goes mental on the strings*

HOPE

you will recover soon. get well soon you!
drink plenty of water. also try not to stay up till so late. :)

ok i should stop nagging. so yeah.

SCHOOL

a place for education. where your parents pay for you and you learn.
cause yea, education is important for us all, it is a MUST for our near future.

but past term, school for me, was a sinking tarpit.

it drags you down. making you struggle. i gave up. i didnt really studied.
i cant blame it on the problems im having, or the jamming sessions i enjoyed, bla bla bla.
eventually it all points to me. so yeah. im at fault.

so from now on, im gonna try change. i may have failed my tests.
but yeah. its not bringing me down. RETEST here i come! screw you, mathematics! :)

I WILL

continue to let my feet drag upon the pavement. go figure now.

SONGS

confirmed for MUSIC TELEPATHY.
- yellow by coldplay
- blurry by puddle of mudd
- (tba)
- (tba)
- (tba)

confirmed for 5TH SIGMA.
- stars by madina lake
- last train home by lost prophets
- my heart by paramore
- stockholm syndrome by muse
- (tba)

excitedness. jamming sessions ahead.

SUNDAY

sunday afternoon. orchard. nadia. syu. putri.
pickup. lunch. long john silver. window shopping.
starbucks. nadia's early departure. we remained.
then departed for home.

school's TOMORROW.
in need of HOLIDAY.

moonbucks? :)

ESCAPE

in hours, i'll get to have my escape from my 4 walls.
freedom. fun. joy. they await. :)

RENEW

finally renew. blogspot.
forget the previous, embrace present now.
hear me now.