GIVE AWAY

i felt awfully generous today.

i donated 10 bucks to the mosque.
i gave my arcade tokens away.
i bought a keychain for her.
i bought dinner for a lonesome kitten.
i bought candy for my siblings.

but still, i cant get this feeling off. oh man. cheer up radi cheer up.

TAKE ME SOMEPLACE NICE

could you, please?

where i could blank out from reality for awhile.
where i can free my troubled mind for the moment.
where i'll know when i turn to my right or left, you're there to listen.

i would like to discard all these. and just, well yea, smile.

INSTRUMENTAL

with sincerity and everything to every one of them. i understand.

BULLETPROOF

i wish i was. :(

limb by limb, tooth by tooth
its tearing up inside of me
every day, every hour
wish that i, was bulletproof

wax me, mould me
heat the pins and stab them in
you have turned me into this
just wish that i, was bulletproof

but in then end as they all say, life is unfair. and i have to fully understand.

IF I DIE

please let my family and friends know that im sorry if ive ever troubled them.
and also to you, nadia...

hmmm, well, you will just have to wait for my answer, when i see you. i promise i'll tell.

RECIPE

lately, ive been conjuring up something.

all you need is.
a bowl of cornflakes.
a bottle of hershey chocolate syrup.
a layer of cheesedale cheese or "whatever cheese you want" .
a box of raisins.

first pour the syrup onto the cornflakes. pour to your own discretion. not too much ok. too sweet.
second, tear the cheese to bits and pour it onto the bowl of cornflakes.
third, pour the raisins in to your own discretion, too much will make it taste all "raisin-like".

and mix em all, and lastly, let your tastebuds enjoy! i call it "the choc raisin flake". ok i anyhow.

MY HEARTBEAT

beats like the saddest metronome, tonight.

dear god,

i think that its not fair, but i know that you are.
all i ask from you is that you bring happiness.

no, not to me. but you already know who, cause ive told you many times.

so yeah. thats all i can ask for.

CITIZEN ERASED II

wash me away
clean your body of me
erase all the memories
it only brings us pain
and ive seen, all i'll ever need.

im happy but yet im sad. you?

HAARP II

IF ONLY IT WAS MUSIC TELEPATHY. ok im dreaming. :)

V-DAY

picturing this pitch blackness.
a heart floating in this nothingness.
water then starts pouring down onto it.
forming an endless vast sea.

after some time.

the flow of water gradually decreases, later stop.
the endless vast sea soon to vapourised in time.
the heart starts to slowly dry up, cracks appears along its surface.
and at the very bottom tip of it, water droplets starts dropping.

even after some time.
the droplets drop in sequence without end.
but never to be an endless vast sea again, but maybe.

HAPPY V-DAY.

WHY

you asked me. well..
through thick and thin, nadia.

through thick and thin.

A BIG SHOUTOUT

to, oh, yes you. :D
"WELCOME BACK NADIA TURLDA CHUBBY CHEEKS!"

LOST IN TRANSLATION

will be shown on channel 5 on saturday night at 1am! must catch it! :)

OH FRIEND

ive heard you. things can only improve, but unlike me, you have all the time in the world.
so keep on fighting, never let them say that there's nothing that you cant do.

dont let go the fight.

EVERYTHING

how are you feeling? what are your reasons? do you feel love or a lack there of?

love is a bond without reason. a cry for connection. a light in your eyes.
love is a reason for living. a reason for trying. a reason for life.

forgive the feeling. get all of your reasons. life is love or a lack there of.

love is a bond without reason. a cry for connection. a light in your eyes.
love is a reason for living. a reason for trying. a reason to cry.

"love is everything"

FARAWAY

the ferry's taken her faraway.
its the only time her mum gets to go on a holiday with her children.

nadia enjoy nadia! :)

HAARP

unfortunately, it'll be release mid of march. oh man, what a bummer. oh well, patience. :)

i should make a stand.
stand up for what i believe.
and MAYBE, just maybe tonight, i can say.

i am invincible.

i cant laugh out loud or hard. if i do. my brain feels like splitting. damn. :/

BACKACHE

can someone please take the pain off my back?
i cant sleep with it tonight, neither could i sleep with it last night.