UNINTENDED

sometimes the time comes, where you'll start to think about your life.
this is the point in time, when you come to think of all that you've done in the past.
it brings back all the good memories, bad ones too. also regrets that you're still holding onto.
leaving them be wont do any good, cause they'll hide and eventually they'll resurface again.
like pushing an air-filled balloon into a bucket of water, eventually it'll float up and resurface.

but even if we are able to keep it long enough, it wont do us good.
usually, even after countless number of reminders to not do so.
so often, we are told not to look back, cause they bring us nothing good at all.
yet, we tend to look back on things, and we end up being sad, for the moment. humans, afterall.

most of the time, for me, this happens frequently.
endlessly, unrequited, forever i'll be.
not that much of a fun hobby, but yeah, it cant be helped.
despite it all, i try not to be sad and hurt myself.
in the end, i have others to consider beside myself.
now knowing it would make them be happy.
gets my purpose going, like a train running empty on coal, forcing itself to run.

being someone who's just giving and not asking for anything back.
real happiness? or just making oneself to be happy, just aslong as others are?
only god knows, but i guess we just want them to be happy. for aslong as they are, we are.
kinda like a sense of self accomplishment. dont you think?
entirely putting aside all those thoughts and desires you have.
not giving in to them, and completely giving in yourself to being unrequited. i dont know?

perfection, isnt what one should aim in life.
its quite important, that one should learn to be contented and blessed.
eventually, even through that, we still find ourselves wanting more.
cause it just dont seem fair to you, that you can have what you yearned for.
eventually, some people choose to forget, some choose to grow cold, while some just remain.
so yes, its a complicated thing, even for myself. and i do not know what to do.

often, you'll hear people with problems.
for there is noone who is without them, everyone has a story to tell.

this story that they tell, might be bout their loved ones, their family, their friends, etc.
how the story goes, is up to us to solve them.
even through our friends advice, it is up to us.

life is hard, we all know that.
it takes through a journey of ups and downs.
for the moment, the downs it brings, seemed like an eternity.
eventually people will say, keep holding on, it gets better as time comes.

i hope it does too. if not, then oh well. we'll just see.

hoping and yearning for it wont bring you anywhere.
and so to avoid dissapointing oneself.
do we pretend to carry on and hope everything will be fine?

but eventually your close friends will find out.
every single detail that you hid from the truth.
finally, all will be known to them, once it erupts and takes the toll on you.
only through confiding in someone, we renew ourselves.
removing all thats needed to say.
eventually and unfortunately, the cycle continues.

"so sorry, i cant help it but to look at you in your eyes and smile"

ALL THE TIME

you're missing him, i know.
and its hard for you.

and i know, there's nothing much that i can do to fix this for you.
except to just and try to cheer you up, and prevent you from falling down over again.
and also trying to make it seem that your life wont be so empty without him.

well, maybe i guess, im not even that half close?
i know i can never help you find the happiness you've lost.
but still i'd give it my all to try and make you happy, even the slightest bit i guess.

and i know im not some fortune teller with some fancy crystal ball.
being able to tell you, your coming future.

but i'll tell you this.
nadia, you'll be alright. i know you will.
if everything goes wrong, you've never once troubled me. just so you know.

so yes di...

everything's gonna be just fine. im sure. slap me if im wrong ok? :)

once the exams are over, we'll go have fun ok?
and lets have fun like theres no tomorrow!
thats why we need to be childish at times! (no link at all)

ok sorry, i must be serious. but yea, i guess this is all.

be happy. im sure your dad would want you to be too. dont do it out of request.
do it for your mum. do it for your dad. :)

CLOVERFIELD

makes a pretty good love story. :)
i want to catch it again.

no spoilers from me.

WHEN ITS COLD, I'D LIKE TO DIE

where were you when i was lonesome?
locked away with freezing cold
someone flying, only stolen
i can't tell this light so old

i don't want to swim the ocean
i don't want to fight the tide
i don't want to swim forever
when it's cold i'd like to die

what was that my sweet sweet nothing?
i can't hear you through the fog
if i holler let me go
if i falter let me know

i don't want to swim the ocean
i don't want to fight the tide
i don't want to swim forever
when it's cold i'd like to die

i don't want to swim forever
i don't want to fight the tide
i don't want to swim the ocean
when it's cold i'd like to die

i don't want to swim the ocean
i don't want to fight the tide



if i holler let me go, if i falter let me know~

MATHS FOR PSYCHOS

you're uncontrollable, and we are unlovalble
maths, not for me. definitely.

i fear for my maths paper. damn.
how come maths has to be head aching. oh well.
don't complain, its for my own future.

so yeah. lets die early. ok no just kidding. i'll take that back.

but i'll still take all the blame.
cause you and me are both one and the same.
and its driving me mad, yeah its driving me mad.

SAD SONGS

the problem with them is obvious, they simply make you sad.
we also tend to relate them to our ownselves. now, dont we all?

THE AWAKENING

the gig last night, was alright.

i had tech faulty. syu did her best. nadia sang good.
resulting her to lose her voice slightly when it was over.

nonetheless, MT rocked their best last night. two thumbs up for the 3 of us! :)

ON BEHALF OF MUSIC TELEPATHY.
i would like to thank those who came and support us, sang along, cheered us, etc.
to those who wanted to come but had to cancel last minute, i still thank you.
its alright, there's always next time yeah!

THANK YOU ALL ONCE AGAIN. :)

ok, spent the day today, fixing this bloody com of mine.
like what nadia would say, lemao. and yeah i think so too. my com lemao.
after 7 hours, i managed to restore it to its "normal lemao" state.

my head is now aching. there's a war waging in this skull of mine.
booom booom booom! and i wonder how long it'll last. an hour or so?

oh man, malaysian soccer really irrates. irritating shit.

aniways, TO TIET TOMORROW TO STUDY AND MAYBE JAM FOC! MUST DESTRESS! CEH! :)

dont worry, when i get my itp pay MT's session is on me ok?
once or twice only! SET! :)

ESC II

you would say anything
you would try anything
to escape your meaningless
your insignificance

you're uncontrollable, amd we are unlovable
and i dont want you to think that i care
i never would, i never could again

why cant you just love her?
why be such a monster?
you burn me from a distance
your brain need some assistance

and i'll still take all the blame
cause you and me are both one, and the same
and its driving me mad, yeah its driving me mad

i'll take back all things that i said
i didnt realise i was talking to the living dead
and i dont want you to think that i care
i never would, i never could again

you would say anything
you would try anything
to escape your meaningless
your insignificance

D-DAY tomorrow! GO MUSIC TELEPATHY GO! :)

ESC

why dont the escape button work?

COLD CASE

is it just me?
or is the weather really too darn cold?

or am i catching a fever?

EXISTENTIALISM

individual existence takes precedence over abstract, conceptual essence and holds that human beings are totally free and responsible for their acts and that this responsibility is the source of their feelings of dread and anguish



sing me something soft, sad and delicate, loud and out of key, sing me anything.

ESCAPE

and its driving me maaaaaaad~!!!
yeah, its driving me maaaaaaaad~!!!

oh no. headache. :/

MASTERPIECE

MUSIC TELEPATHY has just created another song masterpiece.
and its titled, stolen II. hmm wait, now, isit confirmed?

LETS ALL

pray for nadia's brother who will be taking his one last test tomorrow for driving.
insyallah, he'll pass yeah. if not there's always next time.

and also lets hope nadia attain hers as soon as possible.
so we can all go JB and buy bubblegums and burger ramly and goreng pisang!
and she can drive me all around singapore, right right right? :)

15 YEARS TIME

an interesting topic.
which me, myself, cannot predict what my life will be in 15 years time.

probably.

i'll have a wife, 2 or 3 kids, living happily. yes? no?
nah, maybe i probably wont, and live my life trying to chase a dream?

ok actually, to be honest, i dont picture myself getting married or what.
but wait dont get me wrong, its not that i dont wanna marry or what.
oh man, how do i explain this. ok i dont know how to. ok nevermind.

hmmmm...

maybe, i know what i'll be in 15 years time.
i'll be like superman or batman, yeah, i'll do just that.
i'll make the citizens of singapore happy and safe from evil.

ok radi, stop it now.

ok all i know is that in 15 years time.
i'll be 35 years old. and the rest is all uncertain.
wait! MT still remains! ok i hope so. :/

CURRENTLY

ive got hurricanes in my tummy right now.
and in my brain too. damn. oh well.

jamming tomorrow. excited-ness! :)

SPACE SONIC

insane, i feel ashamed when the morning comes, and i hate to breathe
guilty, no doubt i am, please tell me how to come clean again

spaceship, go fuck the stars
when the night falls down, they shine on me
have you, ever felt this way
like you're the worst mankind, on the planet earth

don't even ask why i'm standing here
i found a piece of me, it is still left in you
it's very cheap but cute emotion, i wish you were here

cause i found the way to live with that i'm not going anywhere
i thought you'd only make me weak, that's wrong
i knew it all and you knew it all, that it's never gonna work
to wait for someone who could stop this rain
it just rains

watching, the same old dream
a mailing car, runs over me
have you, ever felt this way
like you are the most useless, on the planet earth

don't even ask why i'm standing here
i found the shiners of my own
a fantasy, good memories
it's very cheap but cute emotion
i wish you were here

cause i found the way to live with that i'm not going anywhere
i thought you'd only make me weak, that's wrong
i knew it all and you knew it all, that it's never gonna work
to wait for someone who could stop this rain
it just rains, it just rains

maybe there's no one who is perfect
but who wants to be anyway
maybe there's no one who is all clean
but who wants to be anyway

cause i found the way to live with that i'm not going anywhere
i thought you'd only make me weak, that's wrong
i knew it all and you knew it all, that it's never gonna work
to wait for someone who could stop this rain
it just rains

DO I?

hmmm. do i really look i dont face stress?
maybe its because i always take things easy. but still..

oh well. nevermind. i wanna jam sooooon! :)

HEAD CHECKED

yes, i got my head checked.

found out i have tension headache.
its a headache that occurs frequently, every few days.
the ache can last for up to 30 minutes or more, can even last for hours.

doctor told me it was due to someone. she's constantly disturbing me.
constantly teasing and making fun of me, and my brain and nerves took alot of damage.
OK SORRY NADIA! I WAS JUST KIDDING! KIDDING OK! IM SORRY! :)

actually its due to stress, lack of sleep, bad posture, irregular meal intakes, etc.
well lucky me, its not serious.

thank you nadia for the countless reminders and sorry ive been stubborn. :S

oh man, there's school tomorrow.
lucky for me all the projects are done and over.
im left with just one more report to hand up.
then the week after will be d-day. tests and exams.

oh well. there's no escape from d-day.

oh, and not forgetting MT's 2nd performance on Jan 18th @ ITE SIMEI.
i cant wait for jamming this coming wednesday. :)

HEADACHES

my constant headaches are normal, they're not anything serious. i hope.
i havent even visited the doctor yet, even after countless reminders.

sorry, im being stubborn, but im sure its nothing. :S

DEDNETNINU

been awhile since this was played live. this time it went acoustic. :)

THIS SONG

hurts bad, at the same time it brings back all those things which made me smile. even till today.
i accidentally found it in youtube.



cool yeah? heh. oh well. its ok to reminisce. but not for too long. :)

UNREQUITED

definition: to give without asking for anything in return.

hopelessly, i'll give you everything
but i won't give you up
i won't let you down
and i won't leave you falling
but the moment never comes

CLAUDINE

i own a keyboard now! matt and maksim, watch out! ok in my dreams! :)

CELEBRATION OF LIFE AND A NEW YEAR

YESTERDAY WAS ONE OF THE BEST DAY EVER.
(though some things went wrong, still id say it was)

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR WELL, BASICALLY EVERYTHING. THANKS A KEZILLION!

cheer up nadia cheer up.
i didnt know what to do and you were right next to me feeling utterly down.
i tried to cheer you up but still, i failed and im sorry. hmmmm. cheer up.

well, A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE. oh bloody hell, school reopens tomorrow.