DEAR WHOEVER

today's probably the worst day ever.

i didnt eat much.
i never tried to talk at all.
i locked myself behind my 4 walls.
i cant stand my parents' constant nagging. (first time ever)

cheer me up. tell me i'll be alright. things will be back to normal in time. please.

even through the darkest of all hours.
i used to see everyday filled with light.
now, that light has started to fade.
im trying hard not to be consumed by it.

i need to express myself in someway right now.

*not related to previous post*

:) or :(

ok, i dont know whether to be :) or :(

oh, no, there's no cause for alarm.
im fine. dont worry. i am.

hooray. jamming again on sunday. wohoo.

BLANK

sorry nadia about the "cat" incident last night.
i shall learn to eat first. then play. can? :)

ok my mind's practically blank right now except the fact that tomorrow is a friday.

also, the zoo is moving nearer to choa chu kang? for real?
if so, visits to the zoo everyday, who's with me? ok i must be joking. seriously.

im craving for ice lemon tea. make it iced cold please.

*starts to daydream*

STUDY

yes, today the purpose was to study at school.
met up with nadia and alia at dover. i was late abit. im sorry. :S

first time ever, nadia with her blue skinnies!

studied for a little while.
ended up 3/4 of the time solving nadia's btt.
also. solving all kinds of quizzes with them.

wooooo. i am suppose to play a harp. sponsor me, anyone?

oh i forgot to mention, we had free hawaian pizza, from pizza hut! :)
thanks to alia's friend of course.

HELLO PEOPLE, BTW I ALSO GO BY THE NAME OF WANDA NOW.
PLEASE DO STAND UP FOR MALE SEAHORSES, THEY ARE REAL GENTLEMEN.

RETURN II

WELCOME BACK NADIA TURLDA, MISS CALIFORNIA, LITTLE MISS CHUBBY CHEEKS!

now now, where's my bubblegum, my muse stuffs, my ramly burger & my village chicken?
alright, i was just kidding. :)

ONCE AGAIN, WELCOME BACK!

X'MAS GLITCH

happened on christmas eve.
my handphone reception was fine.
but my receiving sms were delayed.

too many people were sending xmas messages thus lagging the system?

DUTY ROCKER II

spent the day at tiet studios again. this time it was only me.
was amused by this one band who covered umbrella, where is the love and such.
oh i forgot to mention, i jammed for an hour for free.

err. intially i was supposed to meet up wif syu and adele for the gig at esplanade.
so sorry i cancelled, aniways she was with adele. i'll be the extra one.

well. there you go, time today wasnt wasted at all.
maybe i'll head down there again tomorrow?

oh oh oh! she'll be back tomorrow!

JAMMING AWAITS!

RETURN

she'll be back tomorrow? no? the day after tomorrow? yes?

yay. my grandparents are back from indonesia. :)
the house will be livelier once more.

do me a favour and break my nose
do me a favour and tell me to go away
do me a favour and stop asking questions

ok yes, im hooked. heh. :)

ABSENCE

the food today was splendid. the activities were the same.
i miss my grandparents. oh well 2 more days. haha.

a safe and pleasant journey for you and your family. have fun nadia.
be hearing from you in 4 days time. :)

3AM

at times when ure wide awake late at night, dont you wish you had someone to talk to?

FAMILY GUY V.S THE SIMPSONS

if only they made games like this nowadays. enjoy. :)

DREAMT

oh oh oh, not forgetting something.
last night i dreamt MUSIC TELEPATHY covered citizen erased. oh wow. :)

ok, one fine day.

BORING

yes, say it with me. BOOOOOORING. :(

22: THE DEATH OF ALL THE ROMANCE

moral of the music video is, buy teddy bears, before they lose their heart. err ok not.

CITIZEN ERASED

im sure i used to be so free.

FALLING AWAY WITH YOU

i cant remember when it was good
moments of happiness elude
maybe i just misunderstood

all of the love we left behind
watching the flashbacks intertwine
memories i will never find

so i'll love whatever you've become
and forget the reckless things we've done
i think our lives have just begun
i think our lives have just begun

and i feel my world crumbling
i feel my life crumbling
i feel my soul crumbling away

im falling away, falling away, with you

staying awake to chase a dream
tasting the air you're breathing in
i hope i wont forget a thing

promise to hold you close and pray
watching the fantasies decay
nothing will ever stay the same

all of the love we threw away
all of the hopes we cherished fade
making the same mistakes again
making the same mistakes again

and i feel my world crumbling
i feel my life crumbling
i feel my soul crumbling away

im falling away, falling away, with you

all of the love we left behind
watching the flashbacks intertwine
memories i will never find

memories i will never find

nadia, what this means is...

all these while, probably yes, im at fault, im the cause. so yeah this is it.
i shall give my all to carry on in life, still id be your bestfriend, no matter what.
even if yesterday was probably devastating for me, still, its ok if it hurt me.
everything will remain, i hope. the name calling, the pranks, the usuals.
guess, this is it, and as time goes by, dont worry nadia. i wont forget you.
or the things we talked, joked or laughed about.

so yeah, im sorry for all the troubles ive caused since day one.

lastly, id like to thank you for well, everything.
ive got lots to say but yeah, this shall be all, i guess.

get well soon you. hope you'll feel better. see you tomorrow :)

DUTY ROCKER

yes, last night i spent the whole day at tiet.

accompanying hazwan till he closes the shop.
wait, ubai was with me too. well, actually i forced him to stay too.

we talked about nonsensical stuffs. reviewed the bands who came that night.
there was a 4 piece newbie band which just started out. made out of 2 boys & 2 girls.
and one of their songlist was time is running out by MUSE. what a suprise.

not only that, the bassist & keyboardist were girls. (dont worry nadia you rock more)
and when they heading out, the bassist knocked herself onto the entrance door.
all 3 of us were shocked. how can she not see the entrance door? really funny.

aniways, the long day was also spent playing with the counter bell.
i didnt know why but i found it amusing. i kept playing with it a-hell-lot.
i guess when you're bored anything goes.

oh not to mention, i had drumming lessons too. but still i suck at drumming.

also FYI, there's a grave near to tiet. and yes its someones. a woman's to be exact.
scary stuff aint it. even at night, ubai and i still decided to walk pass there.

overall, yesterday was fun.

and sorry i did not reply you.
i was fast asleep when you sent your sms. :S

TO "YOU" II

no, you're never a burden. stop saying that.
if you've hurt me, i'll understand. i'd never hurt you back.
and sorry, if this was ever my fault from the start.

please, be patient and strong nadia.
jamming soon yea. more pranks on syu. more pranks on you. more silly stuffs from me.

dont hate yourself. you dont have any reason to. cheer up you.

THIS IS MY HEART

hi i am radi and this is my heart.



words, afterall. i'll come around.

KNIGHTS OF CYDONIA

noone's going to take me alive
the time has come to make things right
you and i must fight for our rights
you and i must fight to survive

i want to go jamming again. oh wow, how i wish i can move and play like matt.
oh and no, im not gay.

and their dvd will have to wait till february. its been delayed.
it was supposed to be on december 3rd. oh well. i can wait. patience, patience. :)

YOUR EX-LOVER IS DEAD

one word about the song, beautiful. its titled your ex-lover is dead by stars.
still, i say MUSE is top. :)

WE CAN HAVE IT

last night all the horrible things in life, stormed through my dreams
and i just want to shut it up, shut it down, or shut it off

going where we lost it all, yet things before are with us
now it hurts it kills, it takes the joy, it brings no light, it brings no love

and what we want most, is nowhere to be found, some people care
they're going long, they're going deep, and still its nowhere to be found

we're looking far, we're searching wide, still its nowhere to be found
what we want, is gone for good, its simply nowhere to be found

somewhere is the one that never will burn out
is out there, looking for a heart, looking for a home
looking for a hand to stoke its head

you're not alone, and you never said i'll see you again
you never said i will, you never said i'll see you again, you never said, i will

somewhere, someone says they got it all
but thats not even what we want, not even close

it wont ever be what we want