SCUM OF THE EARTH

sometimes when i look back.

i feel as though i am the scum of the earth.
i brought it all upon others, upon myself, and sealed it till god knows when.
i am the scum of the earth, period, for all of eternity, full stop, whatever.

oh well. regimental life, here i return. well, just for 3 days.

RENEWAL

did we lose ourselves again?

i shall turn over into a new leaf.
i fucking fucking swear. okay sorry i cursed. but yeah.

and im really terribly sorry. also i didnt mean to say wad i said.
i take it back, i wasnt myself.

im sorry.





aniways, hello baby carl anthony!

LONELY DAY

such a lonely day
and its mine
the most loneliest day of my life

such a lonely day
should be banned
this day that I can't stand

the most loneliest day of my life
the most loneliest day of my life

such a lonely day
shouldn't exist
a day that Ill never miss
such a lonely day
and its mine
the most loneliest day of my life

and if you go, I wanna go with you
and if you die, I wanna die with you

take your hand and walk away

the most loneliest day of my life
the most loneliest day of my life
the most loneliest day of my life

such a lonely day
and its mine

its a day, that i'm glad, i survived

ok its not really the most loneliest day ever, but yeah it feels like it. 17 more days left.
and i have alot of things to write and tell about before i go. oh well. maybe when the time comes.

TODAY

stella and luna have both been seymourdunacan-nised! hooray!
and maybe in the near future i am gonna pursue a diploma in culinary bla bla bla!
and also welcome back nadia! yay! :)

my days are numbered. damn. national service. oh well.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS

enjoy yourself nadia! happy holidays! see you when you're back then! *wobblewobble* :)

ALL OF A SUDDEN.

i feel like shit tonight. haiya. oh well, history dont repeat, please.

CONGRATS

to nadia, khairani, sanjid. (did i spell their names correctly?)

all of you did a good job in performing today at the red dot museum.
despite the fact you all had glitches here and there, nonetheless, a good job.

oh and i got to be the soundman!
even though i dont know how to operate most of the mixer. baik ah!

shall see you all perform again, the next time. :)

also, happy 18th birthday adele , and sorry syu for being late.

tomorrow there's video shoot.
tuesday there's cc's jamming.
thursday there's mt's jamming.

hooray!

SG GRIND FEAST

it was held first time ever. and i went to experience it.
and we all had a blast! wohoo! i was like, cardiac necropsy's guitar, bass, drum tech.

aniways, cloud constructors on the attack again! progress to be made on tuesday!
another great day awaits tomorrow! :)

FOR COMFORT, FOR SOLACE

luna & stella, i'll need you both more then ever now.

IN TIME

how do i turn this,



to this?



its gonna take time, be back soon.

IN THEIR EARS

we're gonna slam it to 'that acoustic band', watch out soon.

:(

i dont know what to say tonight. oh well, goodnight everyone, im okay.

CURSE WHOEVER

who finds my nets card and decides to hack it or just swipe it. dammit.
how careless of me. sighs. :(

VOLITION

reality exist in a place unknown and dreams exist in reality.
and truth lies in your heart.

the contents of a person's heart shapes their appearance.
and new images will change their heart and forms.

imagination is the ability to create your own future.
and the power to create your own flow of time.

but if people dont act of their own free will, then nothing wont change at all.
regain your own lost form by your own volition.

even if it means your words become lost.
or confused with the word of others.

UPDATE

ok its been awhile since i last updated.

lately ive been pushing my vocals to their limit.
i am supposed to be singing for this upcoming performance of mine on 28th dec.
at this cool cafe called global sounds cafe.
search for it in yahoo singapore.


so yeah, to anyone who's reading this. please do come to support me. i buy you drink!
nadia, it means alot if you could make it. (bring sharifa along?) hahaha.

i have to taste freedom before 'they' claim me.
dammit. oh well. :/

aniways i cant wait for sunday! alright i shall head to dream street now!

FULL TANK

BURP~! STILL FULL~! BUT IM THIRSTY~! IM ALWAYS THIRSTY~! :)

HALCYON (BEAUTIFUL DAYS)

so it rained this morning.
i guess, last night i sang your birthday song horribly? haha.

aniways...

dont just say its another day. no its not.
its the mark of the day you were born. if YOu werent here.
i dunno what id be doing now.

nadia, its your birthday. :)

i know things are different now. maybe yea, way alot different.
but cheer up. be happy, down be down. your dad may not be with you anymore.
but yeah, you have your mum and your brother and us all.

you have nothing to fear nor worry. you really do.

they say smiling uses less muscle than to frown.
this year you turn 19, alot has happened in your life. i dont know much.
cause yea, i only got to know you 2 yrs plus back.

back then it was just oreos, our guitars and chocolate covered raisins. haha.

aniways, im probably drifting apart. back to the topic.

happy 19th nadia turlda notella!
may you always be happy, despite all the struggles life is putting you through.
dont worry, i'll always be here if you cant stand back up ok?

well, once again, a very good happy birthday to you! nadia happy happy tao! :)

LEAVING ON A JET PLANE

i dreamt bout you going away. at the departure hall. and you were crying.
yes, we'll see if the day comes or not. :)



"dont grow up too fast"

FILL IN THE BLANKS

[insert your picture]

2 words. you're beautiful lah.
ok maybe 3 or 4, but does 'lah' count? ok, dont care. :)

birthday girl in 4 days time, must happy happy ok!

ENLISTMENT

so i am gonna be enlisting in like 2.5 months time.
2.5 months is, idk, prolly quite awhile, not too long, not too short.
idk. cause yeah time passes by fast.

i want a going away party with everyone's goodbye testimonials!
haha. ok nah, prolly not. nobody will do such a thing. oh well. haha. :)