UNINTENDED

sometimes the time comes, where you'll start to think about your life.
this is the point in time, when you come to think of all that you've done in the past.
it brings back all the good memories, bad ones too. also regrets that you're still holding onto.
leaving them be wont do any good, cause they'll hide and eventually they'll resurface again.
like pushing an air-filled balloon into a bucket of water, eventually it'll float up and resurface.

but even if we are able to keep it long enough, it wont do us good.
usually, even after countless number of reminders to not do so.
so often, we are told not to look back, cause they bring us nothing good at all.
yet, we tend to look back on things, and we end up being sad, for the moment. humans, afterall.

most of the time, for me, this happens frequently.
endlessly, unrequited, forever i'll be.
not that much of a fun hobby, but yeah, it cant be helped.
despite it all, i try not to be sad and hurt myself.
in the end, i have others to consider beside myself.
now knowing it would make them be happy.
gets my purpose going, like a train running empty on coal, forcing itself to run.

being someone who's just giving and not asking for anything back.
real happiness? or just making oneself to be happy, just aslong as others are?
only god knows, but i guess we just want them to be happy. for aslong as they are, we are.
kinda like a sense of self accomplishment. dont you think?
entirely putting aside all those thoughts and desires you have.
not giving in to them, and completely giving in yourself to being unrequited. i dont know?

perfection, isnt what one should aim in life.
its quite important, that one should learn to be contented and blessed.
eventually, even through that, we still find ourselves wanting more.
cause it just dont seem fair to you, that you can have what you yearned for.
eventually, some people choose to forget, some choose to grow cold, while some just remain.
so yes, its a complicated thing, even for myself. and i do not know what to do.

often, you'll hear people with problems.
for there is noone who is without them, everyone has a story to tell.

this story that they tell, might be bout their loved ones, their family, their friends, etc.
how the story goes, is up to us to solve them.
even through our friends advice, it is up to us.

life is hard, we all know that.
it takes through a journey of ups and downs.
for the moment, the downs it brings, seemed like an eternity.
eventually people will say, keep holding on, it gets better as time comes.

i hope it does too. if not, then oh well. we'll just see.

hoping and yearning for it wont bring you anywhere.
and so to avoid dissapointing oneself.
do we pretend to carry on and hope everything will be fine?

but eventually your close friends will find out.
every single detail that you hid from the truth.
finally, all will be known to them, once it erupts and takes the toll on you.
only through confiding in someone, we renew ourselves.
removing all thats needed to say.
eventually and unfortunately, the cycle continues.

"so sorry, i cant help it but to look at you in your eyes and smile"

ALL THE TIME

you're missing him, i know.
and its hard for you.

and i know, there's nothing much that i can do to fix this for you.
except to just and try to cheer you up, and prevent you from falling down over again.
and also trying to make it seem that your life wont be so empty without him.

well, maybe i guess, im not even that half close?
i know i can never help you find the happiness you've lost.
but still i'd give it my all to try and make you happy, even the slightest bit i guess.

and i know im not some fortune teller with some fancy crystal ball.
being able to tell you, your coming future.

but i'll tell you this.
nadia, you'll be alright. i know you will.
if everything goes wrong, you've never once troubled me. just so you know.

so yes di...

everything's gonna be just fine. im sure. slap me if im wrong ok? :)

once the exams are over, we'll go have fun ok?
and lets have fun like theres no tomorrow!
thats why we need to be childish at times! (no link at all)

ok sorry, i must be serious. but yea, i guess this is all.

be happy. im sure your dad would want you to be too. dont do it out of request.
do it for your mum. do it for your dad. :)

CLOVERFIELD

makes a pretty good love story. :)
i want to catch it again.

no spoilers from me.

WHEN ITS COLD, I'D LIKE TO DIE

where were you when i was lonesome?
locked away with freezing cold
someone flying, only stolen
i can't tell this light so old

i don't want to swim the ocean
i don't want to fight the tide
i don't want to swim forever
when it's cold i'd like to die

what was that my sweet sweet nothing?
i can't hear you through the fog
if i holler let me go
if i falter let me know

i don't want to swim the ocean
i don't want to fight the tide
i don't want to swim forever
when it's cold i'd like to die

i don't want to swim forever
i don't want to fight the tide
i don't want to swim the ocean
when it's cold i'd like to die

i don't want to swim the ocean
i don't want to fight the tide



if i holler let me go, if i falter let me know~

MATHS FOR PSYCHOS

you're uncontrollable, and we are unlovalble
maths, not for me. definitely.

i fear for my maths paper. damn.
how come maths has to be head aching. oh well.
don't complain, its for my own future.

so yeah. lets die early. ok no just kidding. i'll take that back.

but i'll still take all the blame.
cause you and me are both one and the same.
and its driving me mad, yeah its driving me mad.

SAD SONGS

the problem with them is obvious, they simply make you sad.
we also tend to relate them to our ownselves. now, dont we all?

THE AWAKENING

the gig last night, was alright.

i had tech faulty. syu did her best. nadia sang good.
resulting her to lose her voice slightly when it was over.

nonetheless, MT rocked their best last night. two thumbs up for the 3 of us! :)

ON BEHALF OF MUSIC TELEPATHY.
i would like to thank those who came and support us, sang along, cheered us, etc.
to those who wanted to come but had to cancel last minute, i still thank you.
its alright, there's always next time yeah!

THANK YOU ALL ONCE AGAIN. :)

ok, spent the day today, fixing this bloody com of mine.
like what nadia would say, lemao. and yeah i think so too. my com lemao.
after 7 hours, i managed to restore it to its "normal lemao" state.

my head is now aching. there's a war waging in this skull of mine.
booom booom booom! and i wonder how long it'll last. an hour or so?

oh man, malaysian soccer really irrates. irritating shit.

aniways, TO TIET TOMORROW TO STUDY AND MAYBE JAM FOC! MUST DESTRESS! CEH! :)

dont worry, when i get my itp pay MT's session is on me ok?
once or twice only! SET! :)